I know the tears run down
yet feel no drops in their descent
i am inwardly crying out
"what have I become?"

Am I who i want to be
or the worlds version
which i cannot be
I feel lonely
and surrounded by darkness

I reach out for His arms
and slip and fall once more

I reach to people and
yet I fail them
and they fail me

Please let it rain down
drench my i want to drown in your
love and yet live and breathe still
I want to know your love
deeply i want to pursue you
and be pursued

Then will i find myself?
Will i find the one?

When will these tears run with joy?
when will my worries be gone?

One day

i look up and feel like the world rests on my shoulders
a heavy weight is laden across my back
I see a light and hear music faintly
but i can't see clearly because i am burdened
with worries and trials that i must overcome
not alone
not alone

He lifts it high up above
and throws it into the deep pit of sorrow
which i have just climbing up out of
all alone
He lifts my face up and takes me in His loving embrace

He is my Heavenly prince
and He will help me find my earthly one

He cares for me
and loves me so very deeply

So why shouldn't I do so to everyone?

You walk away i want to yell and say hey
hey hey hey
You always make me smile
and i just want to laugh for a while
Laugh and smile my days away w/ you
pray make music and dance
just dance

i want to be your first and last love
forever
i want to be the one you long for
forever
and ever again

When you smile it makes my day
i cant worry when im w/ only you
mhmmmmmmm
Your laugh takes me away again
and again and again

tonight she gives herself away
she lets herself forget all shes learned
she lets him pull her in and shuts the door behind them
she lies awake that night leaning to the right wondering what she
could have been before.

When she was a little child playing in the summer wind
Laughing in the grass swaying in the wind

Tonight he throws it all away
he takes her in and says its ok
he lets her shut the door
tonight
He lies awake that night leaning to the left
wondering how he was so deaf to His Word

Please dont give yourself away
dont fall into the trap
until your ready
and Hes brought the right one into your life
i will try best to not
Will you join me to
there comes a time
but not until His will
is complete too <3

Why can't it just be easy again
Like when we were nine

and all we ever cared about was
having fun and making a day of it

We'd run and chase and play in the summer air
the winter wind the autumn leaves and in the spring rain

Just let it rain down on me
Please Lord just don't shut the heavens

till I get my fill of you
I look around and nobody really is happy

We worry away our day and
always are wondering what the time is

Why can't we love another
play and live together

talk in harmony
music fill the Earth

Laughter ring through the wind
and Praise sweep through the rivers

The Sun shine
Gods people pray and give themselves away

People tell me im wrong
They act like im foolish

They say that its stupid
to like you.

But i dont see it that way
No i dont

I see you as beautiful
Ive wrote you countless love songs

You were made by my king
And he is yours too

My anxious thoughts think of you and i still smile
the wind pulls me down

but i dont really care
time ticks on

why cant we all get along
stop drowning in our shame

Working only for our own gain
But what about Him?

And what about you?

"Save me now"

These words race through my head doubting thoughts
Countless threads
Music dancing in my soul
Forever more
Hallelujah
Thank You Lord for music

When I'm all alone and anxious
When I think I've lost my mind
You sweep me up and keep me close once more
Hallelujah
Thank You Lord for comfort

When the rain comes pouring down
When I'm stuck here inside
Darkness surrounds me
But Your love holds my heart

Why do You care so much for me?
What have I done to deserve such love from a King?
Where in my heart is pureness to warrant a gift so esteemed?
Your love covers my multitude of sins
Your love oh Lord listens to my anxious thoughts
And only you can save me now