What if I can't see what's up ahead
what if the future fills my head
with worries
I can't control
What if I can't see a light
and what is my life
really supposed
to be for?

Hallelujah to the King of Glory
Hallelujah to the Prince of Peace
Hallelujah to my Deliverer
My God, my Lord

The trees seem to dance as we go along
and a song plays on the radio
Voice crying out for Jesus
"Out of these ashes beauty will rise."
And I say "Yes thank you God. Beauty WILL, MUST rise!"
The clouds have formed overhead
I praise you God and am looking forward to seeing your BEAUTIFUL face.

Theres a pain in my head,
My heart beating fast
I'm so stressed out
And there's no doubt
I should get rid of this thing
I cry out "God please help get rid of this thing
I surely can't do it on my own."
But what shall I fear?
For if He cares for the sparrows and
I am one of His fearfully and wonderfully made,
I must be much more than these <3

My love only reaches so far
Yours reaches to the heavens and beyond
You are faithful to the end
You are more righteous than the wisest men
Your justice sees into the hearts of all and determines rightly
Let me raise my voice always to You
Let my heart be full of Your joy
Let me be filled with the holy life You bring
Let my lips never betray Your name

(Interpreted off of the lyrics from 'Your love oh Lord')

I feel so done -- but I've just begun
Please give me the strength to carry on
The weight of these tears feels too great to bear
my heart so heavy, and I might pull my hair
Please, God let the sunshine come back to play
So I may have a smile on my face

My heart knows you Oh God, but my mind has a fog around it, unable to know fully your ways.

I try to love you with my mind but i fall short again

I try to love you with my heart and the healing starts

I try to love others with my mind and my heart hurts

I try to love others with my heart and the joy begins

I try loving him with my mind and i am confused

I try loving him with my heart and i am overjoyed

With my heart full of your love, my mind your joy,

I am finally satisfied

Rain sprinkles down on the beach
Shivers run
Formed letters with rocks from the water
Carved Letters in the sand
A song is smaller than a whisper
Emptiness grows

A silent prayer is sent.

Eyes yearning.
Faces inside my mind
I see them and they go away
My heart races and slows
Chest up, down
Mind racing around
Exhausted body
Time seems to be wasting
How did You find me?
I am still tasting
Your love and discovering
Your will for me
Music runs and skips in my head
I wait many days and dread
that we may never find the ways

french tipped painted nails type out letters
breath goes in and out
wanting inside
love is haunting me
Great love which I can have
and human romance love which has not come yet
the summer air is in
spring has flown away
Mind is confused running in circles
tripping over its own feet

I push the covers off my shoulders and stretch out
my heart starts to quicken as my body starts to wake up.
Today is another day. Will I make it?
Will my attitude please Your holiness.
I am a lost soul, sinful, and selfish.
I long for things i cannot have, or cannot have yet.
I leave you in my covers and uncover you in trouble.

I need to love you
I need to find you
My soul weeps at the troubles i cause with my own heart
I wish to be pure and lovely

Yet my body turns and falls in the dust

I want to find true love

Yet I will ignore you often and miss my True love

I don't seem to trust your plan for my love.

Where can i hide that you will not find me?

Nowhere.

When I fall, why do I not let you catch me??

I know the tears run down
yet feel no drops in their descent
i am inwardly crying out
"what have I become?"

Am I who i want to be
or the worlds version
which i cannot be
I feel lonely
and surrounded by darkness

I reach out for His arms
and slip and fall once more

I reach to people and
yet I fail them
and they fail me

Please let it rain down
drench my i want to drown in your
love and yet live and breathe still
I want to know your love
deeply i want to pursue you
and be pursued

Then will i find myself?
Will i find the one?

When will these tears run with joy?
when will my worries be gone?

One day

i look up and feel like the world rests on my shoulders
a heavy weight is laden across my back
I see a light and hear music faintly
but i can't see clearly because i am burdened
with worries and trials that i must overcome
not alone
not alone

He lifts it high up above
and throws it into the deep pit of sorrow
which i have just climbing up out of
all alone
He lifts my face up and takes me in His loving embrace

He is my Heavenly prince
and He will help me find my earthly one

He cares for me
and loves me so very deeply

So why shouldn't I do so to everyone?

You walk away i want to yell and say hey
hey hey hey
You always make me smile
and i just want to laugh for a while
Laugh and smile my days away w/ you
pray make music and dance
just dance

i want to be your first and last love
forever
i want to be the one you long for
forever
and ever again

When you smile it makes my day
i cant worry when im w/ only you
mhmmmmmmm
Your laugh takes me away again
and again and again

tonight she gives herself away
she lets herself forget all shes learned
she lets him pull her in and shuts the door behind them
she lies awake that night leaning to the right wondering what she
could have been before.

When she was a little child playing in the summer wind
Laughing in the grass swaying in the wind

Tonight he throws it all away
he takes her in and says its ok
he lets her shut the door
tonight
He lies awake that night leaning to the left
wondering how he was so deaf to His Word

Please dont give yourself away
dont fall into the trap
until your ready
and Hes brought the right one into your life
i will try best to not
Will you join me to
there comes a time
but not until His will
is complete too <3

Why can't it just be easy again
Like when we were nine

and all we ever cared about was
having fun and making a day of it

We'd run and chase and play in the summer air
the winter wind the autumn leaves and in the spring rain

Just let it rain down on me
Please Lord just don't shut the heavens

till I get my fill of you
I look around and nobody really is happy

We worry away our day and
always are wondering what the time is

Why can't we love another
play and live together

talk in harmony
music fill the Earth

Laughter ring through the wind
and Praise sweep through the rivers

The Sun shine
Gods people pray and give themselves away

People tell me im wrong
They act like im foolish

They say that its stupid
to like you.

But i dont see it that way
No i dont

I see you as beautiful
Ive wrote you countless love songs

You were made by my king
And he is yours too

My anxious thoughts think of you and i still smile
the wind pulls me down

but i dont really care
time ticks on

why cant we all get along
stop drowning in our shame

Working only for our own gain
But what about Him?

And what about you?

"Save me now"

These words race through my head doubting thoughts
Countless threads
Music dancing in my soul
Forever more
Hallelujah
Thank You Lord for music

When I'm all alone and anxious
When I think I've lost my mind
You sweep me up and keep me close once more
Hallelujah
Thank You Lord for comfort

When the rain comes pouring down
When I'm stuck here inside
Darkness surrounds me
But Your love holds my heart

Why do You care so much for me?
What have I done to deserve such love from a King?
Where in my heart is pureness to warrant a gift so esteemed?
Your love covers my multitude of sins
Your love oh Lord listens to my anxious thoughts
And only you can save me now

why does the river bed seem so inviting instead
of my bed with blankets sprawled around.
why can't the image leave my head of happiness
which i have not yet found.
clocks tick round and i walk yet
beneath the eaves of spring for more
and my hunger is not satisfied yet.
i waste the time watching
talking, but where is a hope?
sunlight waves through the trees hoping
to find a back to warm. my back shivers with delight
and i walk back inside. sounds surround me,
and i kneel, and i am quiet.

I am so confused I thought I knew what was true
But the beginning may come in sight and I will start there again
The birds you take care of oh Lord. What shall I fear then? Whom shall I fear?
My time will come. My time will come. I will follow You now. Give in, confess.
Where is the Light? Is it hiding now? The shadows surround me. Where is Truth?
Find me, o please find me.

Hey this is a writing page but it maybe so random you don't get it.. you may find out for yourselves

i sing to the Lord God, I sing. Angels surround Him, adore Him. What am I? But a poor soul am I. Nothing else. Never will be more until His love is all I see. In Heaven that may be... But a poor soul am I. What do I know of Your majesty? What do I know of You? I know nothing. But a poor soul am I. Your wonder abounds. Your peace surrounds my being in times of trouble. It is I who can choose to refuse it.
But a poor soul am I.

where are you tonight? traveling on the highway, going through the countryside. Saying goodnight perhaps? Looking at the stars. Mind traveling to heights or resting with peace. the moonlight sprinkles light onto the waters surface, and the fish go down to the deep for sleep. Lullaby lullaby they seem to say. A restless wanderer touches the water with a stick. A raccoon edges in for a drink. A man strums his guitar by the waters edge, hoping to play the pain away. I sit here and pray

tonight i miss you tonight i sit before the computer aimlessly typing my mind
away. What is love? love is eternal, from God and not man.
I wish to give but i struggle to find the words. I sigh and look at the crinkles of my knuckles
slowly drift into through thoughts and delay the unknown from others.